I feel bad

Since the last 1 month, I've been pushing myself to hard = I've been torturing myself to the limit.
Started to realise the situation is very bad when I looked at my 'undone' laundry at home.

I work 7am-9pm almost everyday.
I dont bother of having a day out to relax.
I dont bother to rearrange my closet/things.
I even went to do part time lecturing for 9 hours on Friday and Saturday.

It turned out to be...
Constant headache since saturday...
Sensantion of lights since Sunday morning...but managed to go to Nilai Square sampai petang semalam which I took it as girls day out with my friend...kononnya....!!
Last nite..
My hubby sent me to DEMC after the unbearable throbbing headache...couldn't even cough as that worsen my condition...
The doctor took my BP...there!!
150/103.. Mengucap panjang aku...
I have never have elevated BP before.
I have never experienced systolic reading of more than 120
I have never experienced diastolic reading of more than 80 before
When is that before? 3 weeks ago....

The nurse requested me to lie down for 30 minutes to repeat the BP measurement
She asked me to relax...clear my mind..gave me a synflex 550mg for the headache.
"adik..please inform my hubby yaa..ada kat luar dalam kereta plet BHP dot dot dot dot"
I tried to relax...
I started to imagine me lying at the beach by the seaside...(of course laa...got aa beach next to our house?)
Started to see the blue greenish ocean and typical pokok kelapak...(like in the poster...)
Suddenly...I started to think of my lab..office...work...students...
Guess what?
That nice peaceful blue greenish ocean scene changed to a very fierce wave colour teh susu...cehhhhhh!!!!
After sometimes...the nurse came back and take my BP measurement again.
Alhamdulillah dah drop tremendously.
130/97...though the diastolic still high but me and the doctor came to a conclusion that:
-I am too stressful
-I need a day break every week
-I have infection-bad cough for almost 3 weeks now= note that infection will increase BP
Back to the car after the pharmacy - sesi mengambil ubat...
My hubby looked very worry...cian dia..
So I told him nothing to worry....
I'm ok..I'm fine...
At home...
Hubby told me not to think of unnecessary thing like
-that NL yang suka gesa org for urgent meeting when nobody's around....
-students yang takde minat nak blaja...lantaklah depa tu...yg minat je kita layan.....
-have to rethink of me taking the part time lecturing in melaka for the coming semester.....

Me thinks:
-I should control my diet
-I should muhasabah myself - malas solat hajat, malas pose sunat, malas baca quran => padan muka aku
-I should take things easily...work hard and think smart....

This morning...
No spirit to do anything
Finally teringat blog ni...
That's y I'm here...

QUOTE of the DAY
Duit bule cari...kesihatan sangat bermakna...jaga diri sendiri sebab orang lain takkan pedulikan kita kalau kita dah flat nanti.....

Syukur padaMu ya Allah kerana mengizinkan aku terus sihat hari ni....